In Pursuit of True Happiness
Throughout my life, I have had many ups and downs in regards to people and the way they act, the way i react and how relationships fall apart. I have many things that I hold inside, or I wouldnt say hold inside but I let it out to either my close friends or just write it down to get it out. Last year i was in a relationship with this guy that I thought I was gonna be with forever. I was so "lovestruck" and it made me extra blind. Anyways to make a long story short, I went thru mad stuff with his family and I was overwhelmed. I left the relationship and stopped it in its tracks. This caused pain for both me and him, but when you have to give something up that you want, it has to be done. [A girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.] So basically, he stopped talking to me and at first i was bothered by it bc during the relationship we said if we were to break up, we would stay friends. But I guess bc of the way things happened, he was hurt by it. But I forgave him for being so immature and non-understanding. I forgot about everything his family put me through. And I fast forwarded my life and got what I really wanted. [Well who I really wanted.] Anyways, the mess continued. It was only the beginning. After getting with my present boyfriend, many other things started to happen. Many of my friends who liked my boyfriend stopped talking to me. I had alot of forgiving, forgetting and fast forwarding to do. Some ppl havent done the same but I did my part. I just always knew tht if you dnt forgive, God cant forgive you. But its so crazy that as I was claiming tht forgiveness was the hardest thing for me, many trials came so tht i could be tested. Thats the thing that holds me and I wanna be free.....
Throughout my life, I have had many ups and downs in regards to people and the way they act, the way i react and how relationships fall apart. I have many things that I hold inside, or I wouldnt say hold inside but I let it out to either my close friends or just write it down to get it out. Last year i was in a relationship with this guy that I thought I was gonna be with forever. I was so "lovestruck" and it made me extra blind. Anyways to make a long story short, I went thru mad stuff with his family and I was overwhelmed. I left the relationship and stopped it in its tracks. This caused pain for both me and him, but when you have to give something up that you want, it has to be done. [A girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.] So basically, he stopped talking to me and at first i was bothered by it bc during the relationship we said if we were to break up, we would stay friends. But I guess bc of the way things happened, he was hurt by it. But I forgave him for being so immature and non-understanding. I forgot about everything his family put me through. And I fast forwarded my life and got what I really wanted. [Well who I really wanted.] Anyways, the mess continued. It was only the beginning. After getting with my present boyfriend, many other things started to happen. Many of my friends who liked my boyfriend stopped talking to me. I had alot of forgiving, forgetting and fast forwarding to do. Some ppl havent done the same but I did my part. I just always knew tht if you dnt forgive, God cant forgive you. But its so crazy that as I was claiming tht forgiveness was the hardest thing for me, many trials came so tht i could be tested. Thats the thing that holds me and I wanna be free.....
1 comment:
i remember those days... i thought ya'll was gonna get married lol but I guess.. there was a lesson to be learned in it.
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