Once in a million EVENT....

In Pursuit of True Happiness

This event only happens once in a blue moon....When was the last time you saw a blue moon? Anyways, yesterday at approximately 2:00pm, I COOKED. Yes I repeat I cooked! So basically, I was so bored and my mom complains that all I do is clean my own room, buy food for me and enjoy myself. LOL. I dont understand the problem. But anyways she basically wanted me to cook for her, being that Im a good cook and all..lol=] So, I looked in the cupboards and fridge to find sum stuff. I couldnt find what i needed, so i decided that it would just be potluck...

For those of you who dont know what potluck is::

Potluck: n. (paht-luc) lol.... a mixture of products in your kitchen that have no relevance, but is made into a dish, usually in a pot. ex: Mom, i see franks, vegetables and peas. "Yeah, we having potluck."

Ok so now that we are all on the same page, let me explain what I did and found.

So heres all of the ingredients that I found in the fridge/cupboard:

*tomato sauce

*creamy alfredo cheese

*chopped meat

*bowtie noodles

*peas and carrots

*breadcrumbs

*seasonings

*egg

So anyways, being that I love helping people **cough** I will gladly give away my new recipe.

Ok, first you should boil the noodles with salt and butter. Dont let it get too soft.

Then, you cook the meat with seasoning. Make sure the meat is no longer pink. Take into consideration the stomachs that will be partaking.

Then you steam the veggies with butter.

After wards you put the egg yolks on the noodles, put all ingredients in a baking pie bowl.

AND BAKE!

Thats all you getting.....L8R!

By the way that picture is NOT the final product of my food, is not my food at all!!! LOL

Extreme Makeover: Bianca Edition

In Pursuit of True Happiness

I was over thinking some things in the construction world and I was evaluating certain processes that they have to incorporate. Well I don't know if any of you have ever seen the show Extreme Makeover: Home Edition. Well in that show basically, they pick special families that either went through something tragic or is an inspiration to the community etc. Basically the family is considered unique, peculiar, different in some shape or form. Keep that in mind. Now they come to the house and along with many of the community members and they break the entire house down. All of these people contribute in the breaking down process. Every time I watch the show, I see that they do this part with a nonchalant attitude. They just break the house with no care of the valuables inside or even the $40,000 shutters grandpa just put on the house. This all does not matter. Now after the house is shattered, the debris is all cleaned up and removed so that the new building could be placed there. Keep this also in mind. Now they start to rebuild the house and make sure that everything that will benefit the whole plan would be in place. These new materials, ideas, and equipment will all surpass the old things. Keep that also in mind. When the project is done, the family can now come back to regular living in their new furnished home. Well with all that said here is the spiritual aspect.... I have just experienced something in my life (once again), where it was more than I could bear. I became confused with life and my purpose. I was defeated in a sense where life had no meaning to me. Now, you may ask how the house and building story has to do with anything? Well. What i know is that in order for my soul, spirit, mind to be new and refreshed, something needs to be broken down. There was great need of destruction of things that were not pleasing to God and things that didn't concern him. In order for this "new house" to be put in place, the old needed to be removed. The people in this story serves as the enemy breaking down your thoughts, your joy, your understanding for life, But what he doesn't know is that, he is helping you right now. He has helped me by placing these obstacles in my way because I'm only learning how to fight...Look at your breaking points as your training to defeat whatever the devil throws your way...

Forgive,Forget, then Fast Forward.

In Pursuit of True Happiness
Throughout my life, I have had many ups and downs in regards to people and the way they act, the way i react and how relationships fall apart. I have many things that I hold inside, or I wouldnt say hold inside but I let it out to either my close friends or just write it down to get it out. Last year i was in a relationship with this guy that I thought I was gonna be with forever. I was so "lovestruck" and it made me extra blind. Anyways to make a long story short, I went thru mad stuff with his family and I was overwhelmed. I left the relationship and stopped it in its tracks. This caused pain for both me and him, but when you have to give something up that you want, it has to be done. [A girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.] So basically, he stopped talking to me and at first i was bothered by it bc during the relationship we said if we were to break up, we would stay friends. But I guess bc of the way things happened, he was hurt by it. But I forgave him for being so immature and non-understanding. I forgot about everything his family put me through. And I fast forwarded my life and got what I really wanted. [Well who I really wanted.] Anyways, the mess continued. It was only the beginning. After getting with my present boyfriend, many other things started to happen. Many of my friends who liked my boyfriend stopped talking to me. I had alot of forgiving, forgetting and fast forwarding to do. Some ppl havent done the same but I did my part. I just always knew tht if you dnt forgive, God cant forgive you. But its so crazy that as I was claiming tht forgiveness was the hardest thing for me, many trials came so tht i could be tested. Thats the thing that holds me and I wanna be free.....

Do You Remember the time?

In Pursuit of True Happiness

Today was Ashleys prom. Yeah she was all dolled up and looking all sexified.=]I designed her dress and did a marvelous job. I picked her hair design and all. I was just thinking, I should be a prom coordinator lol. Anyways, Im just missing my prom day, June 6th 2007...I remember it like it was yesterday. "Memories dont live like people do.." I was in my golden dress, golden shoes, golden purse, golden eyes...ok maybe im lying about the eyes but so what. But I was sooo happy, i thought i was a princess. Princess B..that sounds right. People go all out for prom now a days. I was so simple and now everybody wants the extravagant look. Anyways hopefully she has a great time, better than i did in 07. To those who havent had their proms yet, have a great time, enjoy yourself and dont do anything I wouldnt do...L8R!!

What is true worship?

In Pursuit of True Happiness
Well, yesterday was Jesus Day at Brooklyn Tech High School and of course Jezreel was up in there. Myself, my bunny monster, Kennard, Sam and Mikey came through to usher in the presence of God. Well the BT band did praise and worship and it was kind of weird. Im not sure if Im not used to that type of "worship" or if it was just all wrong. Being a praise and worship leader, you can conclude that I am critical when it comes to this subject. Well, the songs were great, I mean their from God, so what else would they be. But the whole approach was kinda off. My brother Sam put the band together and he is someone I look up to as in the way he presents himself. He allows God to use him in soo many ways, its crazy. I just admire his desire for God. Well anyways he came up with the band idea and he is a true worker for God, so I knew that his intentions were great. I just felt that the players, along with the singers, did not fully understand the true meaning of worship. I didnt understand how many people can "worship" God with their mouths closed. The Word says "I will bless the Lord at all times and his praise shall continually be in my mouth." When I first saw this type of worship, I just thought in my mind that I am too used to Pentecostals and the dancing and jumping and shouting, that as I look around the world, things are different. But this time, my whole mindset changed bc at the end of praise and worship I felt the same after as I felt before I came. The atmosphere was dead and it seemed that the pnw singers just sang the songs and the "audience" reacted as though they were at a concert and not in the midst of the presence of God. I stress this because I feel true worship is what will take the church to another level. The main reason why people become so depressed is because worship has become more of something we have to do, rather than a lifestyle that we desire. So, how do we get to the place that God wants us to be? Consistency, Strong desire and Endurance in worship will take us there.
1. Consistency takes place when we make worship our lifestyles. Not only when we simply say "Lord we worship you, You are worthy...etc" but our lives honoring God, serves also as worship. Everything we say, do and want to do serves as worshipping God as well. (Romans 12:1)
2. Strong desire takes place when we say we seriously want God to reign in our lives. When someone cleans their room just because they have to, it becomes so routine like. But when we start to clean our room simply because its dirty, we desire cleanliness. This is the same way that worship works, we have to want it. (Psalm 40:8)
3.Endurance is one of the most important factors. When we experience our hardship, we tend to sulk in our misery. But true worship comes in when we worship through our mess. When we decide to share Gods glory, we share his suffering also. So instead of becoming consumed with your problems, we need to learn to worship God through our pain. (John 4:23)
Anyways I feel like Im about to preach a sermon.lol=]. So thats just how I felt yesterday. Im done. Toodles!