In Pursuit of True Happiness
Well, I was always told that when you want something, first you have to want it bad, then you basically put your all in getting to it. Ok, so I want something and the thing is I had it, but...
Its kinda complicated....As a Christian, you have something to work around and its called the will of God. Its a hard thing to accept but has so many benefits. So according to Gods will I cant have what I want and its killing me...But then again, I have made a promise that I will run after God, if he leads me.....So this is where it all begins....
Friday, August 1
Tuesday, July 29
How bout a round of applause?
In Pursuit of True Happiness
So I went to an open mic restaurant with my friends Nancy and Charita. We had so much fun that day. First we went to Apple bees to eat and then we went to the club called Five Spot. So we went to that spot and it was cool, real dark and a band playing. The band was pretty nice. So we order some drinks and we just sat there....yeah, we sat there...It seemed that there was no one that looked like our "type of crowd" there. So we sat there....So about 12 am, a bunch of black people came rushing the club. Ok, they didn't rush the club, but they sure did come out of no where. So we were like this is more like it. LOL...well they started the open mic and i didn't wanna sign up. Im not really shy when it comes to singing in church but, singing outside is real scary. So finally the sign up lady kept coming to our table and insisted that we sign up. Apparently a guy heard us singing in the background of someone singing on stage....nosey people! Anyways, I decided to sing. So i had to think of a song to sing with the band before they called me. I thought of my look and my twin..Rihanna. I love the song Take a Bow. But, wait! I don't know the second verse like that. So i tell the lady and she makes this girl write it out for me. So they call ,my name a second later and the girl is not finished writing it out. I was so nervous. Im shaking in my pants and at the same time Im walking on stage without the words. OK, so I called the lady and said Where are the words?! So she ran and got the words...Ok I was ready...
"You look so dumb right now, standing outside my house..." and then came SILENCE! Oh my gosh, now I forgot the first verse. Who looks so dumb right now? ME!! Any who, Im such a G...I told the band stop and start over. lol...omg I really just did that. So the band started over. "You look so dumb right now, standing outside my house..." SILENCE! Whatever I continued. The rules say that you have one chance to make a fool of yourself. Ok i made that up but so what? Now I kept singing and I eventually got thru the song. I did real good!! "How bout a round of applause, a standing ovation?"
So I went to an open mic restaurant with my friends Nancy and Charita. We had so much fun that day. First we went to Apple bees to eat and then we went to the club called Five Spot. So we went to that spot and it was cool, real dark and a band playing. The band was pretty nice. So we order some drinks and we just sat there....yeah, we sat there...It seemed that there was no one that looked like our "type of crowd" there. So we sat there....So about 12 am, a bunch of black people came rushing the club. Ok, they didn't rush the club, but they sure did come out of no where. So we were like this is more like it. LOL...well they started the open mic and i didn't wanna sign up. Im not really shy when it comes to singing in church but, singing outside is real scary. So finally the sign up lady kept coming to our table and insisted that we sign up. Apparently a guy heard us singing in the background of someone singing on stage....nosey people! Anyways, I decided to sing. So i had to think of a song to sing with the band before they called me. I thought of my look and my twin..Rihanna. I love the song Take a Bow. But, wait! I don't know the second verse like that. So i tell the lady and she makes this girl write it out for me. So they call ,my name a second later and the girl is not finished writing it out. I was so nervous. Im shaking in my pants and at the same time Im walking on stage without the words. OK, so I called the lady and said Where are the words?! So she ran and got the words...Ok I was ready...
"You look so dumb right now, standing outside my house..." and then came SILENCE! Oh my gosh, now I forgot the first verse. Who looks so dumb right now? ME!! Any who, Im such a G...I told the band stop and start over. lol...omg I really just did that. So the band started over. "You look so dumb right now, standing outside my house..." SILENCE! Whatever I continued. The rules say that you have one chance to make a fool of yourself. Ok i made that up but so what? Now I kept singing and I eventually got thru the song. I did real good!! "How bout a round of applause, a standing ovation?"
Third day of my trilogy
In Pursuit of True Happiness
So the final day of these "adventures" was yesterday. Yesterday was the Tye Tribbett concert and Mary Mary, and Ricky Dillard was there. It was long, long lines going around the blocks and stuff. It was so crazy. Now, Kennard got the hookups and got his mom to get us VIP tix. So we were in the front, seated in chairs and stuff with all the artists..Yes, Jezreel got it like that. Anyways the concert was so poppin...Tye Tribbett killed it of course, Ricky Dillard was OK and Mary Mary was nice. But the concert overall was nice, it was my first bug concert and I wanna do it again..lol, if you wanna know more about these adventures read my besties page. Click here...
So the final day of these "adventures" was yesterday. Yesterday was the Tye Tribbett concert and Mary Mary, and Ricky Dillard was there. It was long, long lines going around the blocks and stuff. It was so crazy. Now, Kennard got the hookups and got his mom to get us VIP tix. So we were in the front, seated in chairs and stuff with all the artists..Yes, Jezreel got it like that. Anyways the concert was so poppin...Tye Tribbett killed it of course, Ricky Dillard was OK and Mary Mary was nice. But the concert overall was nice, it was my first bug concert and I wanna do it again..lol, if you wanna know more about these adventures read my besties page. Click here...
Second Day of Trilogy
In Pursuit of True Happiness
So Sunday morning, after the concert of dedication to God for me...Jezreel had to minister at 8 o clock service. We were supposed to minister Free but Matthew said he had no voice to sing Free. But that night after the concert and after my encounter with JC, he revealed to me that Free was the song and that the people needed to free from their sins and bondage's. Ok, so we decided Free was the way to go. We came to the service and we sang Free, no we ministered Free..Many people were touched by the song. I felt that everything that happened in the concert the night before, was confirmed by that song...God works in mysterious ways...
Sunday night was the conference with a preacher named Sherlock something and he was really good. Basically I knew that God had something for me, to lift things from me and to take away unlike things from me. I felt really good after that conference and I was ready for more...
So Sunday morning, after the concert of dedication to God for me...Jezreel had to minister at 8 o clock service. We were supposed to minister Free but Matthew said he had no voice to sing Free. But that night after the concert and after my encounter with JC, he revealed to me that Free was the song and that the people needed to free from their sins and bondage's. Ok, so we decided Free was the way to go. We came to the service and we sang Free, no we ministered Free..Many people were touched by the song. I felt that everything that happened in the concert the night before, was confirmed by that song...God works in mysterious ways...
Sunday night was the conference with a preacher named Sherlock something and he was really good. Basically I knew that God had something for me, to lift things from me and to take away unlike things from me. I felt really good after that conference and I was ready for more...
First day of my Trilogy
In Pursuit of True Happiness
So...Saturday, July 26th was the Culture day for the church El Shaddai. Jezreel, AMM and other groups had to minister. Well it was real cool, other than the fact that it was in a driveway....Umm, the food was ok, and the people were nice. Oh...Jezreel definitely came and represented. It was real nice. We sang three songs [Free, Boneless lol, and Your Joy]. The songs were nice. We sound beautiful. Kennard kinda messed up his words and he got reall upset...being that he is a perfectionist, but, we were there to support him 100%. Anyways, we left after AMM ministered, and went to Dre [from AMM] just to chill. We bought food and just chilled....It was real cool so we decided to stay the day with Matthew being that his group had to minister at a concert later that night. So, we all waited for Matthaus' father and he came and drove us to the concert venue. We came in and Jezreel sound checked the mics for some reason..lol...anyways, we sat and waited for the concert to start. So it started kinda late, you know black people time...And it was pretty good. There were a few people that stuck out to me. There was a lady that sang Encourage Yourself and she killed it...matter of fact she abolished it LOL...I was so touched, I felt a tear coming out. Also there was this guy that sang Holy by Donnie McClurkin and he sound just like Donnie. He was just kinda weird looking with a mow hawk but it doesnt matter now does it?...Umm, there was a girl named Esther Lormil [who Sam happens to be in love with] and she came with her crew and ripped the stage. She was rockin like crazy "WE ARE CHRISTIANS, MIGHTY MIGHTY CHRISTIANS"...Powerful message. They started talking about Christians that sing to each other and not to the people who need Christ. Like that makes so much sense..We hold concerts and rallies for the youth of the church who know God...Like we need to do more street evangelism...That night was so powerful and I kinda needed it. It really encouraged me to become more faithful to God and his way....I kept saying my soul says yes...in my sleep and all...powerful!!
So...Saturday, July 26th was the Culture day for the church El Shaddai. Jezreel, AMM and other groups had to minister. Well it was real cool, other than the fact that it was in a driveway....Umm, the food was ok, and the people were nice. Oh...Jezreel definitely came and represented. It was real nice. We sang three songs [Free, Boneless lol, and Your Joy]. The songs were nice. We sound beautiful. Kennard kinda messed up his words and he got reall upset...being that he is a perfectionist, but, we were there to support him 100%. Anyways, we left after AMM ministered, and went to Dre [from AMM] just to chill. We bought food and just chilled....It was real cool so we decided to stay the day with Matthew being that his group had to minister at a concert later that night. So, we all waited for Matthaus' father and he came and drove us to the concert venue. We came in and Jezreel sound checked the mics for some reason..lol...anyways, we sat and waited for the concert to start. So it started kinda late, you know black people time...And it was pretty good. There were a few people that stuck out to me. There was a lady that sang Encourage Yourself and she killed it...matter of fact she abolished it LOL...I was so touched, I felt a tear coming out. Also there was this guy that sang Holy by Donnie McClurkin and he sound just like Donnie. He was just kinda weird looking with a mow hawk but it doesnt matter now does it?...Umm, there was a girl named Esther Lormil [who Sam happens to be in love with] and she came with her crew and ripped the stage. She was rockin like crazy "WE ARE CHRISTIANS, MIGHTY MIGHTY CHRISTIANS"...Powerful message. They started talking about Christians that sing to each other and not to the people who need Christ. Like that makes so much sense..We hold concerts and rallies for the youth of the church who know God...Like we need to do more street evangelism...That night was so powerful and I kinda needed it. It really encouraged me to become more faithful to God and his way....I kept saying my soul says yes...in my sleep and all...powerful!!
Monday, July 21
Warming on my own...
In Pursuit of True Happiness
So the bible says one cannot warm themselves on their own...So basically we need people in our life. Sometimes people become so stressful that I feel that I dont need anyone. People let me down 24/7, so I might as well be without people. I dont need the stress in my life.Every time I get sick and go to the hospital, my doctors claim its stress related. So why do I need that extra stress...I really don't, so I'm not searching for any extra relationships in my life!! Friendly or intimately...I dont need the aggravation. Basically these are the characteristics I deal with...
a/ Theres someone that is doing wrong and as much as I try to help them to change, they keep on going back into their mess...I DON'T NEED THE STRESS
b/Theres someone who gets mad very quick over the pettiest things...I DONT NEED THE STRESS
c/Theres someone who calls me 24/7 and doesnt stop being so annoying...I DONT NEED THE STRESS
d/Theres someone who doesnt know how to keep it real, so they beat around the bush for everything...I DON'T NEED THE STRESS
e/Theres someone who feels that everyone should bow to them..I DONT NEED THE STRESS
f/Theres someone who got too attached...IDNTS
There is much more but I think you got the point...Lets say it together..I DONT NEED THE STRESS!!
So the bible says one cannot warm themselves on their own...So basically we need people in our life. Sometimes people become so stressful that I feel that I dont need anyone. People let me down 24/7, so I might as well be without people. I dont need the stress in my life.Every time I get sick and go to the hospital, my doctors claim its stress related. So why do I need that extra stress...I really don't, so I'm not searching for any extra relationships in my life!! Friendly or intimately...I dont need the aggravation. Basically these are the characteristics I deal with...
a/ Theres someone that is doing wrong and as much as I try to help them to change, they keep on going back into their mess...I DON'T NEED THE STRESS
b/Theres someone who gets mad very quick over the pettiest things...I DONT NEED THE STRESS
c/Theres someone who calls me 24/7 and doesnt stop being so annoying...I DONT NEED THE STRESS
d/Theres someone who doesnt know how to keep it real, so they beat around the bush for everything...I DON'T NEED THE STRESS
e/Theres someone who feels that everyone should bow to them..I DONT NEED THE STRESS
f/Theres someone who got too attached...IDNTS
There is much more but I think you got the point...Lets say it together..I DONT NEED THE STRESS!!
Thursday, July 10
How can you be tired?
In Pursuit of True Happiness
So everyone who knows me knows that I'm ALWAYS sick. People say its because I don't eat, some say its because I don't take vitamins and others say I'm "indirectly stressed"[whatever that's supposed to mean] but all of that can be factors. But....one thing that gets me going, makes me nuts, drives me up and off the walls is when my mother [my dearest mother] says "I'm sick and tired of you being sick"...How can YOU be sick and tired of ME being sick? That is not logical at all. I'm sick and tired of me being sick...I have to deal with it. Not you! People act like I ask these things on my self....Maybe when I was 5 at my big party,I blew out the candles and wished to have a sickness...OR Maybe when I was 7 and I said my prayers, I asked God to curse me instead of bless me, OR Maybe at 16 making my New Years Resolutions, my last one on the list was I need to get a sickness..NO! I didn't ask for this, so I'M sick and tired of dealing with it. Sorry I just had to vent....
So everyone who knows me knows that I'm ALWAYS sick. People say its because I don't eat, some say its because I don't take vitamins and others say I'm "indirectly stressed"[whatever that's supposed to mean] but all of that can be factors. But....one thing that gets me going, makes me nuts, drives me up and off the walls is when my mother [my dearest mother] says "I'm sick and tired of you being sick"...How can YOU be sick and tired of ME being sick? That is not logical at all. I'm sick and tired of me being sick...I have to deal with it. Not you! People act like I ask these things on my self....Maybe when I was 5 at my big party,I blew out the candles and wished to have a sickness...OR Maybe when I was 7 and I said my prayers, I asked God to curse me instead of bless me, OR Maybe at 16 making my New Years Resolutions, my last one on the list was I need to get a sickness..NO! I didn't ask for this, so I'M sick and tired of dealing with it. Sorry I just had to vent....
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